Last night, I was responding to a friend’s question, asking me about the most intimate sexual experience I’ve had. I mentioned a Hispanic guy I dated part of last year. He talked constantly about wanting to impregnate me, for me to have his baby. And so, he came inside me deeply, each time we met. Hearing me describe this, my friend looked at me as if I had three heads. But it made me wonder if others have had the same fantasies.
Clearly, Manny and I were both astute enough to understand biology and pregnancy. That said, it was a powerful metaphor. Manny came from a large family and believed that intercourse should naturally result in insemination, which should be life creating. He talked a lot about young and fertile I was, and how potent he was. He was sure that if he inseminated me often enough, I’d bear him a child. He bragged he was gonna knock me up when he was fucking me. And he held me after he came in me, staying inside me so that his sperm could swim deep inside me and not leak out. (He was a massive shooter; it was always messy.) It wasn’t about status, but family.
When we first started dating, the talk seemed frankly ridiculous. And yet, he was totally sincere (and insistent). After a while, I began to see the intimacy of it, and actually did fantasize about him impregnating me, which turned him on more. The whole premise made our sex more intimate and fun. I’ve certainly allowed other men to cum inside me, but I haven’t enjoyed that level of intimacy.
Have other tops and/or bottoms experienced it?